tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-84480084163158985392024-03-06T00:24:14.917+08:00What's Inside My Mind?I speak so little, so here's where my mind screams out loudliyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-3235967491396539762018-08-29T23:43:00.003+08:002018-08-29T23:44:19.780+08:00#Funfacts 01<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Dear future actuaries,<br />
Financial Mathematics is never hard.</div>
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-83870837179839199102018-01-22T00:09:00.002+08:002018-01-22T00:25:09.701+08:00Something to Ponder<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I'm entering 4th semester soon, and my parents are already lecturing on how I should start researching for scholarships and universities' requirements for a Diploma graduate to pursue a Degree, overseas. As you all know, MUET is not recognized worldwide, so I NEED to take IELTS or TOEFL if I want to go abroad.<br />
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The thing is, I haven't considered if I ACTUALLY want to pursue my studies in Actuarial Science, overseas. Studying abroad has always been a dream; playing snow during winter, exploring great places in the country, snapping beautiful four seasons' sceneries with my own DSLR (soon). It would be a lie if I say I didn't envy Hazman. His life sure went his own way, that's SUPER great, and it makes me want to achieve mine too. I was a bit jealous when my parents went to visit him -- I didn't tag along due to finals π -- but a part of me don't want. Is it because I'm afraid I'll flop when I'm there?<br />
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People think I'm intelligent. I do, too, but these days, I feel like I am just a normal being with normal capabilities with no special talent(?) Is it because I've been slacking these few years? Someone needs to knock me out of my sense back. The funny thing is, my competitive self is still in me; I get disappointed when I'm lower than someone, I get excited when I'm the highest -- this is not me being ungrateful, it's just self-satisfaction, which is one of the needs in Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs (yes, Hani, I study this too π). You know, that feeling of realizing you've changed, like, a lot. I think I've lost my momentum.<br />
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Mama shared about Hazman; he's planning on buying a few houses for home stays, he didn't use much of his scholarship and saved up a lot. I like how passionate and optimistic my brother is. He's just wayyy different than me πππ I spend and buy a lot (only Ena knows how much I spent, gosh I need a finance advisor), and don't even have any future plans except doing part-time photography, let's see if this goes my way too, huh? π<br />
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All in all, I hope I could find myself in another 2 years (I need to make my choice for my degree soon). To whom it may concern, let's all do our best and enjoy the moments, will you? π Best of luck from the girl who is still lost in her own world.<br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-47756318705047923312017-12-14T18:07:00.000+08:002018-08-29T23:33:40.273+08:00I Ain't Gullible<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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The dreadful week 13 is finally here - almost coming to an end actually.</div>
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Next week is the last week for third semester.</div>
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Maksudnya lepas tu final.</div>
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Means musim stay up dah bermula.</div>
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Ayah, mama and Hariz will visit Hazman the day after tomorrow.</div>
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I wish I can go with them; but no.</div>
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Sebab it's week 13.</div>
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Sebab ada test and kejar deadlines assignment.</div>
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Safe flight, please.</div>
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And bring back some pile of snow for me.</div>
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Thank you.</div>
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Liyana cepat fall in love dengan orang yang baik dengan dia.</div>
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-43429495636605740912017-09-23T16:31:00.001+08:002018-01-22T22:27:25.971+08:005 Months In A Post<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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It's been a long time since I updated my blog. I missed ranting random stuffs in here; which I haven't been doing it lately since I've been too busy kerja and settling down for 3rd semester. So, here's a summary of how I live for the past 5 months of holiday:<br />
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1. I applied for the volunteer program in Petrosains and it's a *very* good choice because I got to meet my old primary schoolmate, making new friends, communicating with various people around the world, and also experimenting things. I'm grateful to have the opportunity to work there but was a little bit surprised to experience things that I didn't even imagine of. Glad I managed to survive until now. Like Hazim said, just kerja and abaikan apa2 yang jadi dekat situ. Just don't interfere with the staffs' stuff (pun unintended)<br />
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2. Alhamdulillah my 2nd semester's result came out well. Hoping that I can maintain sampai final year of diploma and graduate with excel results. Tapi... until now still unsure whether to pursue Degree in Actuarial Science or not :|<br />
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3. Started 3rd semester last 2 weeks and until now, everything is going well and fine. Moga dipermudahkan untuk memahami segala apa jenis ilmu yang akan dipelajari for the whole semester, amin. Also, trying hard to not spend my money on unimportant stuffs; like reaaaaaally harddd.<br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-55355271105364996122016-12-13T20:03:00.000+08:002016-12-13T20:14:06.768+08:00Heads up, Yana π<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I am scared<br />
of my future<br />
of my current life<br />
of myself<br />
of C++ Programming<br />
of 2nd Semester.<br />
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I am worried<br />
of myself<br />
of my future<br />
of my career<br />
of my financial management.<br />
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Baru lepas baca blog muni<br />
I'm not that close with my father too<br />
But not awkward with him<br />
I was raised with the loving side of him<br />
But mostly I was (am still, I guess? π) scolded for being mischievous and making troubles.<br />
Maybe that's why I became serious at times.<br />
Because I don't want Ayah to scold me again π<br />
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I didn't practice C++ during the semester break.<br />
And Ayah kind of sulking with me.<br />
Sebab I am the only penyambung warisan of programming ππππ<br />
Yes, I know it's my fault.<br />
But the way he said it was kind of upsetting me (nope, my eyes are not teary)<br />
I know I shouldn't feel that way.<br />
But, maybe because my dark past turns me into a VERY sensitive person.<br />
It kind of hurts.<br />
Ke sebab PMS?<br />
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Guys,<br />
I've been spending a lot of money this year πΈπΈπΈ<br />
Need someone to brainwash me right now<br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-35732741431145873332016-10-27T11:54:00.001+08:002016-12-03T09:19:09.673+08:00October Roundup<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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It's been a month.<br />
Hi :)<br />
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Currently having my semester break and will be busy again on 3 Dec.<br />
Final exam is over, and yeah, the questions are okay so far, except for ASC172.<br />
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I don't think insurance management fits me well :')<br />
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Celebrated my 18th birthday with Sitti and her housemates and my roommate, Til at Cat Town, Seremban 2.<br />
I realized that I'll be celebrating my birthday for another 2 years during my exam week :')<br />
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Ayah suruh practice C++ Programming the whole sem break ni. As a preparation for 2nd semester katanya.<br />
I should do it, then.<br />
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I guess the older you get, the more you tend to keep things to yourself, huh?<br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-79406641027285425092016-09-22T15:56:00.001+08:002016-09-22T16:22:06.041+08:00Your So-called-agent π<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Hai<br />
Tiba2 rasa nk post something.<br />
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These last weeks of 1st sem were kind of hectic sebab deadline for most of the reports are before study week so yeah kitorg dekat sini ada sampai stay up tk tidur sebab nk siapkan insurance report, accounting project etc.<br />
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Colloquium is a success tapi sampai my part agak stuttered sikit sebab I am not into explaining and presenting type (ok la alasan semata sebenarnya takut je hagahahahaha) Ni nak jadi typical orang kejap ehem <i>kalaulah aku baca and faham betul2 produk PRUguard my family tu, mesti aku boleh present fluently. </i><br />
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Nampak la tk boleh jadi agen insurans hahahahahahhahahaha.<br />
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Hazman is flying to UK tomorrow. Bangga ada. Sedih ada. Jeles ada. Bercampur baur. Tak sangka akan rindu dia kehkeh π tapi ye la he's my one and only driver yang setia pickup dekat lrt setiawangsa hihuuu lepas ni tkde dah yang nak amik --- kena jalan kaki atau naik teksi atau tunggu Mama yang amik :') Anyway, good luck and congratulations to him.<br />
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I have been thinking whether I should pursue my degree in pure maths or actuary je terus. Nanti la fikir balik betul2 ππ<br />
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Apa2 pun, good luck to TwoFour and Ultraladies for your final dan moga kita boleh gather time sem break π<br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-85584379640344626402016-08-01T13:28:00.000+08:002016-08-01T20:59:11.147+08:00A Month in UiTM.. <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
WALO WALO PEEPS (or maybe walo walo to me)<br />
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So it's already a month lebih dekat seremban ni and I admit my homesickness masih ada but alhamdulillah it's getting much better than my early weeks (or days, I suppose xD) Classes are fine. And I am fine :)<br />
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This week is full of tests and assignments and quizzes. I need my burning passion back but Ainhad said mungkin I borrowed it to her and it got lost. Moga burning passion kembali to my soul, please huhuuuu.<br />
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Next week is Majlis Anugerah Dekan and I am a multimedia committee. I am in charge of short videos, which will be posted online in youtube(Sasscomms) and instagram (@sasscoms3) so it's quite a burden for me as I am not good enough in shooting but have a pretty good skills in editing ecewaahhh hahahaahahha. But yeah, it's quite a burden sebab generations nowadays suka yang gempak2 tk hambar bagai tu and I AM A SERIOUS PERSON. Hence, I am worried. Moga Liyana berjaya hasilkan video menarik untuk dikongsi bersama rakan2 sekalian. Dan buat Nur Amalina, I'm going to make you proud π<br />
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14/8 ada kenduri doa selamat and I want to join and help my family. Tapi memikirkan it's held on Sunday and I have morning class on Monday.... TANAK BALIK NAIK KTM πππ tapi takkan nk tumpang newlyweds cousin π<br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-88607242197239983502016-07-11T13:24:00.001+08:002016-07-11T13:25:16.011+08:00Account-uary<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Hmm... why am I so fragile? </div>
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Tadi belajar akaun. </div>
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Rasa menyesal tk pursue akaun. </div>
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-1621893037248361252016-04-12T13:05:00.001+08:002016-04-12T16:36:35.298+08:00Are Expectations A Burden? <p dir="ltr"><br>
People always tend to have expectations towards others. Whether it's high or low, it depends on the person's perfomances and achievements. That's how people survive; living up to someone's expectations until one day they realise life is tiring because we didn't live our life the way we want to as we were busy meeting people's expectations. </p>
<p dir="ltr"><i>*anyone</i> <i>please check my grammar :') *</i></p>
<p dir="ltr">It's been a while since SPM results were announced. I'd been applying for scholarships and unfortunately, I am not qualified for any of those as my BM is A- . People said it's weird for me to not be shortlisted to any interview with my excellent results. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I <b>am</b> sad, honestly. Siapa tk sedih kalau tk dapat biasiswa? Dengan ekonomi yg entah tk tahu apa jadi one day nanti. Tapi tu la, since Form 4 memang my BM tk pernah lebih dari A- :') But that doesn't mean I <b>cannot</b> speak Malay correctly, duhh *rolling eyes* </p>
<p dir="ltr">Mama tanya about scholarship everyday; ada ke dpt emel, itu dh keluar, ini dh keluar, dh check ke result etc. Terasa mcm satu beban pulak. Sebab tk dpt biasiswa. Tapi enn....... </p>
<p dir="ltr"><i>'Aku nk biasiswa ni utk parents ke utk aku?' </i></p>
<p dir="ltr">I guess my intention is wrong. <br></p>
<p dir="ltr">.............. <br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br></p>
<p dir="ltr"><i>Are my intentions all right? </i><br>
<i>Am I doing it for Allah? </i><br>
<i>When I see it deep down inside, </i><br>
<i>Do I have the right نية? </i><br><br></p>
liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-11861945478265478792016-03-11T19:08:00.000+08:002016-04-11T18:08:52.506+08:00Crossing Paths<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Kau tau,<br />
aku baru sedar yg aku ni tkde cita2.<br />
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I enjoy maths and formulas.<br />
I am always curious about machines and technologies.<br />
I like Physics very much.<br />
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Bila org tanya aku nk sambung apa, nk jadi apa;<br />
Aku teragak-agak nk jawab.<br />
Pernah sekali ni cakap kat Mama nk jadi photographer je.<br />
Tapi Mama macam........<br />
Dan orang lain kata better photography tu jadi part time je.<br />
I agree.<br />
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Actuary? <br />
I don't know.<br />
It's my first time hearing the word and suddenly decide nk jadi actuary hanya sebab it involves maths. Aku tkde la buat research sangat about actuary ni. So bila orang tanya kenapa nk sambung actuary, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.<br />
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UCSI OPEN DAY.<br />
Abang marah sebab aku tk buat research.<br />
Dia kata bila aku decide nk sambung actuary, dia tk yakin sebab he knows actuary ni bukannya about maths je. Ayah pun risau sbb it's a tough one. Dan aku pun risau dgn diri sendiri. Boleh ke aku buat? Dan kadang tu rasa mcm lebih kepada engineering. Tapi yeah....<br />
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I WANNA CRY SOBSOB T.T<br />
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Vuduh jugak la sebab apply scholarships with 3 different courses - actuary, account and engineering. Nmpk tk aku tk kenal diri aku.<br />
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Doakan yg baik2 saja utk saya; sama ada mimpi nmpk muka Che Rogayah atau Pn Zainiah atau Mama Soph :')<br />
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Ngeheh.<br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-46662339644704037062016-01-13T20:45:00.004+08:002016-01-14T00:20:01.679+08:00Peter Pan<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">yeah so hai π</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It seems like blogging is not really my thing. Takde siapa paksa pun and I can just delete this anyway. But somehow it feels good. You know, like having a good listener.Sebab I'm not really a semua-saya-nak-share-dengan-orang type of girl. Mungkin sebab tu la I'd live 5 years being a good listener (but a bad responder π
). Apa orang kata tu? Lombong emas, huh? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Dan mungkin itu juga punca I don't write well on my blog. </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">Anyway, sejak officially school leavers ni..... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I was diagnosed with Peter Pan Syndrome. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I'd realized that the world is truly challenging. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">And I am not ready. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Tapi tu la. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Times and tides wait for no man. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">And so, I am suffering mentally. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Entah berapa kali hati ni rasa nk meletup.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Entah berapa kali mata ni rasa nk banjir. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I am evolving--</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">atau mungkin I'd woken up from my dream? Because I've been sleeping too hard? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Betullah.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Bila kau rasa kau dh cukup bagus, sebenarnya kau tk bagus sangat pun. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mungkin sebab blinded by my so-called achievement, I don't have commitment. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Orang selalu kata I have bright future. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Orang selalu kata aku beruntung. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Yeah, lucky me. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Orang kata jgn tgk org yg lagi bagus dari kau. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Tapi aku selalu tgk yg lagi atas. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Bila scroll insta, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">ada yg berjaya jadi fast trackers (eh ke apetah nama dia). </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">ada yg pergi kursus English. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">ada yg asah potential sendiri. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Tapi aku, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">mcm zombi je dkt rumah. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">HAHAHAHAHAHAHA NGEH</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mungkin sebab dh biasa ada kawan utk encourage kita buat something. Ada kawan utk jadi tempat rujukan, tempat berbincang bagai. So, bila takde ni rasa cam lifeless. Tapi tu la, I should start living my own life. Sebab hidup bukan selamanya dengan kawan. Dan hidup bukannya pasal kita je. Kan? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Rindu. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mayna kata saying the word is easy tapi susah nak cari yang betul2 maksudkan. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Aku betul2 rindu Thia. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sebab dia je yg aku selesa nk cerita semua benda. Dia je yang rela dengar all my celoteh bebelan blabla. And I'm sorry kalau selama ni those nags disturbed you. π</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Rindu Imani. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sebab dia je yg pernah jadi tempat takungan; walau hanya sekali (tk lupa juga pada Nad sebagai saksi yang setia menepuk bahu tanpa berkata apa sebab memahami atau mungkin tak tahu nk buat apa hagahaha) . Mungkin la kan pernah je nangis dekat orang lain. Kalau nk remind me yg dia pernah jadi tempat curah perasaan, komen la hahahaha. Let me appreciate you truly. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Haih. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Entah bercelaru dah point. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sejak jadi fragile ni.... </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">πππ</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">And yeah, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">saya masih setia membaca blog Hani and Mayna wuuhuuu ππ</span><br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-29855461040480511022015-05-02T21:26:00.000+08:002015-05-02T21:32:33.752+08:00Chapter 3 - Benchmarking<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Innerself .<br />
Aku paling payah nak move on.<br />
Sebab otak aku sentiasa penuh dengan tanggapan orang,<br />
Apa orang lain fikir pasal aku.<br />
Tapi, kadang-kadang aku malas nak kisah<br />
Sedangkan tanggapan tu paling penting untuk aku.<br />
Sebab aku ni<br />
Selalu lebihkan tanggapan yang remeh..<br />
Macam apa orang fikir pasal stail aku, pasal action aku,<br />
pasal.... small things that doesn't matter much.<br />
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26 - 30 April .<br />
SMAKL jadi tetamu SEPINTAR lagi.<br />
Mula-mula rasa macam <i>'meh, sepintar lagi.'</i><br />
Tapi lubuk hati teringin nak pergi;<br />
nak tengok apa sekolah yang satu tu dah buat dekat kawan aku yang sorang ni<br />
sampaikan dia tak rasa nak balik sekolah.<br />
sampaikan dia hari2 cakap rindu suasana SEPINTAR dekat aku.<br />
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hmmm...<br />
now I knew.<br />
why she talked like that.<br />
why she behaved like that. <br />
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the only answer to my questions<br />
was just in front of me<br />
I saw it with my own short-sightedness eyes.<br />
I heard them talking with my not-so-sharp ears.<br />
I felt it myself.<br />
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Betullah cakap dia.<br />
Iklim dini di SEPINTAR is much better.<br />
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Memang<br />
SMAKL ada kelebihan dari certain aspect.<br />
tapi this one thing yang lack--iklim dini.<br />
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I know,<br />
I should do something rather than typing<br />
sebab action speaks louder than words.<br />
yes, I know. ...<br />
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* * * * * * * * *<br />
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ngeh <br />
intro cam takde kaitan<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">bukan tanak post 5JN . tapi sebab dah post dkt tmpt lain ..<br />
5JN - Hijau 4 - Elexfifth<br />
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<span class="short_text" id="result_box" lang="ko"><span class="hps">κ°μ¬ν©λλ€</span></span><br />
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liyanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09203255640912362157noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8448008416315898539.post-45965916008557400272015-02-27T22:17:00.002+08:002015-02-27T22:20:08.107+08:00Chapter 2 - Unease<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Tahun ni</div>
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TAK TERURUS sejujurnya laa</div>
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atau maybe aku je yang tak terurus.</div>
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ngeh .</div>
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Hectic.</div>
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Dengan event dan responsibility yang digalas.</div>
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Bukan nak mengeluh or nags or brags.</div>
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Cuma nak bagitau</div>
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<b>takde siapa kata tanggungjawab itu senang</b></div>
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tapi susah tak bermaksud tak mampu, kan?</div>
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Sebab Allah doesn't test us melebihi ability kita.</div>
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Sebab <b>Tuhan itu Maha Penyayang.</b></div>
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Melebihi sayang kita pada orang lain.</div>
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Makin teruk atau makin baik,</div>
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itu aku tak tahu.</div>
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Mungkin ego kata makin baik, tapi iman sedang sakit.</div>
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Mungkin selfish kata it's okay, tapi empathy kata it's not okay.</div>
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Mungkin kawan kata biasa je, tapi diri sendiri duduk tak senang</div>
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sebab rasa macam dah buat salah banyak sangat dekat people around me.</div>
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To people whom I'd done wrong, <b>I am truly sorry.</b></div>
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Masih belum sedar diri</div>
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Bekalan akhirat belum mencukupi</div>
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Untuk menghadap Sang Ilahi</div>
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Dan masuk ke syurga yang abadi.</div>
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Kadang rasa macam jadi hamba exam.</div>
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Sebab mostly belajar sebab exam.</div>
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Sebab nak naik pentas dan tengok mak ayah proud dengan kita.</div>
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Sebab nak cuba kalahkan abang yang 9 tu.</div>
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Sebab....terpaksa?</div>
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Tapi orang kata,</div>
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<b>Keterpaksaan melahirkan keikhlasan.</b></div>
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Mungkin aku ni keras hatinya.</div>
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sampaikan suruh ikhlas pun rasa malas.</div>
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Sedang belajar untuk ikhlas.</div>
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Belajar menjadi sang mukhlis</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">*bukan Amir Mukhlis okay.*</span></div>
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Menjadi orang yang ikhlas.</div>
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Dan tidak mengharap agar dibalas.</div>
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:)</div>
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